And January’s a goner too!
When life’s quirks puzzle me, I often venture into the garden – at least on a sunny day like today, to shake off silly thoughts from my head. We had a pretty strong storm last night, so I was taken aback by the incredible blue of the sky when I looked up towards our roof (where the planter in above pic is located)! The wind has almost died down, but it still is a bit chilly, so after a few minutes of gawking at the first signs of spring (I’ll spare you – I already posted so many similar photos over the four years of my blog’s existence!), I quickly returned to my sofa and the relative cosiness the heater affords us.
When I woke up this morning, I found myself in one of those pensive moods that come to me from time to time. I wanted to blog about it, but I still had the unfinished task of this week’s post for the Kempinski’s Discover Gozo blog, and after that I normally don’t feel like writing anything else… and to be honest I still don’t. It always boils down to the same subject anyway. Becoming suddenly aware of time’s passing, of being focussed on nothing but work, of side-lining life itself – and consequently being sidelined by it, too.
In fifty years you get to know yourself pretty well, though it’s a process stretching over a long time and involving a lot of hindsight. And so I am just now coming to terms with the discovery that when I find myself craving for gadgets (Apple’s iPad springs readily to mind) and/or other material stuff (such as new lenses for my camera), then more often than not it is because I feel such things would return some meaning to the life I’m leading… no matter how transient that “meaning” would be. That is the thought I woke up with today and that kept spinning in my head thereafter. I went as far as imagining a huge garage sale, including the cars, and followed by selling the house itself. And then what…? Living the rest of my life on a little island, far away from anything. Wait a moment… I’m doing that already!
Will someone please show me the way beyond square one?!
