At first I thought it was sort of morbid to blog about this headache saga of mine, but then it struck me that it would make for some interesting documentation, whichever way the story will eventually end.
To recap, I obediently took my course of benzos, and as promised the paracetamol that I was allowed to take as required, actually worked (it doesn’t usually work for any pains I might have, but that might be all in the mind, too!). But that course was over 10 days ago, and nothing has ever changed. This week I am on leave from work (that had been planned), and I honestly expected my headaches to be gone by now. Only they aren’t.
Just now a comment by my friend Lisa on facebook finally pushed me to phone my doctor again; and now I’ll be paying him a visit for blood tests tomorrow morning. (Just when I thought I’d have ONE day to sleep in tsk tsk tsk!). When I told him I’d been thinking of going straight to the hospital he said they wouldn’t keep me in, but rather give me an outpatients appointment in eight weeks’ time. Rosy prospects. I mean, I could be dead by then??
Right now my mood is hitting an extremely low point. I wish I could turn a switch, causing me to quit thinking immediately. But the more I try not to think, the more I do. Figures!
Okay, maybe it’s appropriate to end this silly post with something beautiful. Found this butterfly in the garden this morning, keeping still just long enough to let me have a snap. Isn’t he handsome?
Posted on May 12, 2010 - 12:24 pm. Add a comment
To all my friends, near and far…
Happy Mother's Day!
Hope you’ll have a wonderful day!
Posted on May 8, 2010 - 10:35 pm. 2 comments
So that crippling headache of mine is becoming an epic bore of sorts. I’m not totally incapacitated, though slowly but surely I’m kind of losing it. I can’t concentrate and sometimes I just feel like throwing things at walls in my frustration! The tranquilliser course was fine for sleeping at night (too good, actually), but nothing else. Not only didn’t it keep my mind off my headache, but on the other hand it succeeded in taking my mind off pretty much everything else. Not a very satisfying state of mind, I can tell ya!
A few days ago the Kempinski’s Ayurveda centre very kindly took me in and I received two head massages and a truly relaxing shirodhara, but both times the effect didn’t last for more than half an hour. Thanks to my bosses and Dr Reshmi, by the way!! A bigger thank you even to Tanja, who’s offered to take over my MOD shift tomorrow, which means I’m now on leave until the 17th May. I’m so hoping that all this is really just stress-related because if it’s not I don’t know if I’ll be able to cope with what might be in store for me…
’nuff of that stuff. This weekend there’s the Valletta Grand Prix in Malta, which I sadly won’t attend. BUT last Wednesday many of the classic/historic cars crossed over to Gozo, and I had made sure to take that day off for some photo-snapping…
It was fun, but after Marsalforn I left the group as it was just becoming too hot and tiring. At least I had a different subject for my photography, for a change. I am getting a little bored with the rocks and the sea…
Posted on - 12:33 pm. 3 comments
OK… this is not going down in history as pure genius. At least not on my part. Photoshop CS5 has this neat little feature called ‘puppet warp’ – it’s an awesome tool if you know how to use it. Me, I’m just stumbling along, learning ever so slowly by trial and error…
My models are Renzo Knight of Gozo, our little mascot, and Charlie, the permanent resident of the Kempinski Hotel San Lawrenz. And of course I left them in their familiar surroundings! (Well, they don’t really spend time in hotel rooms – leave alone suites, but for today we’ll let that pass, shall we? hehe)
Renzo Knight of Gozo and Charlie, relaxing in a suite
Renzo Knight of Gozo and Charlie by the swimming pool
With that, I’ve sat much longer at the PC than I wanted to. But it was worth it. Will switch off for good now…. so in case you comment (please do – critics are welcome!) I probably won’t reply before tomorrow. Have a nice weekend!
Posted on May 1, 2010 - 7:19 pm. Add a comment
Not much changed; headache perseveres, tranquilisers tranquilise and another week’s gone down the drain. Days are just passing in a hurry as they usually do, only nowadays I’ve got little to show for it. Most of the time I spend trying to remember what I was just about to do. This week I stayed home for one day but that didn’t help any either, so i went back to work the next day. And I am worried that that pain is indeed not all in the mind… I don’t believe it’s allergies, either, as some of my friends suggested.
My biggest worry is to have to spend time in a hospital. No matter what they would find, the thought of spending any length of time among moaning and groaning people – really ill people – gives me the creeps!
The day I stayed home I spent half slouching on the sofa, and half venturing into the garden catching lizards. So at least my photographic instincts are still up to scratch…
Posted on - 8:07 am. 1 comment
