Still here!
Time for a little update. I’m battling a bit of a bad conscience, about being so quiet about things, especially as so many of you helped me to keep my blog & website alive… However, I’ve been really not well enough to string together whole, coherent sentences recently!
The month of May has by and large been a rather disturbing one. Well, the disturbing part actually started even before that: during my last appointment with the oncologist here in Gozo a new chemotherapy cycle with Taxotere® was scheduled for April 26th, but because of the rather intense pain I stayed two days at Boffa Hospital and received chemotherapy and a single radiotherapy shot to my spine on the 27th – even though I’d been told that I shouldn’t receive both treatments without a break in-between. Anyways, it was pretty bad.
But worse was to come once I returned home a couple of days later. Not only hadn’t the radiotherapy done anything to take my pain away but to the contrary, had made it considerably worse. On top of that my stomach objected heavily with all symptoms it could possibly muster, to the assorted medications I was taking orally. For some reason the hospital pharmacy at Boffa also forgot to hand me the Zofran tablets (against nausea) to take home with me, and by the time I finally received them a day and a half later, not a single one stayed down. I ended up in such a mess that I was taken to hospital by ambulance – on my son’s birthday, out of all days! That was all of 8 days ago…
Shortly after my admission in a four-bed room, my blood test showed an extremely low white blood cell count, leaving me vulnerable to possible infections. So the other patients were moved out, and all my visitors have had to wear protective clothing and facemasks. Here’s a mobile phone snapshot of hubby and sisters-in-law, taken during those first minutes – looks much more light-hearted than it really felt…
Meanwhile I’ve been moved to a single room, which I am very, very grateful for. Of course the privacy and familiarity of home is best, but I have been able to get a good rest, and feeling safe and taken care of by professional staff obviously also plays a huge part in that. Hopefully I’ll be able to go home by the weekend!
Well, that’s all for now. I will try not to let too much time pass before telling you again how things are going…
Tags: cancer
Thanks so much for the update and thanks for sharing. I do hope things get better Sabine, sending love and healing . . .big ((hug))
again Sabine as always thanks so very much for sharing what must have been a most harrowing time for you dear
..we hope this last bout of horrid chemo and radium WILL have an effect and make what you have been through worth while…
I pray for you regularly my friend and you are constantly in my thoughts .. we do think the world of you and we especially want you to get better
wishing ya Gods speed and please continue to keep the chin up .. you are an inspiration to us all
Mick And Sharon
Thank you for the update, Sabine. I know this is probably the LAST thing you want (or need, for that matter) to do, but we all appreciate it so much! Just concentrate on getting out of there. I’m glad you are receiving the care you need, though.
Lots of love and prayers,
Kathy
Bless your sweet, tender heart!!! So, so sorry you are going through this awful trial, Sabine. Will you forgive me if I say that is a cool photo? You might be feeling awful, but you know a photo op when you see it!!! You have my love and prayers, Sabine.
Sabine:
I am grateful that you feel well enough to even post this update! Keep heart and we are always with you in our thoughts and wishes! (HEART)
-jon
Sabine,
I understand that staying for so long in the hospital would be uncomfortable, undesirable……
But, you are under expert care and if have need for help it is a button away.
I don’t believe any of us expected you to post entries for us, your job is to heal, feel more like yourself…that takes time, focus and energy, (that is your job right now).
Thank you for letting us know you are little by little finding your way back….. Please keep moving forward honey…..
You are in our hearts, and we love you…..
Peace, healing and so, so much love to you
Lisa
Dear Beanie,
thank you so much for letting us know what happened… for having the strength to write this blog for us. I hope the therapy which sounds so horrible will fight in your body against the cancer and that you will feel better. I wish I could hold your hand or could do something else for you. You ar in my thoughts and prayers and I’m sending you love and light and strength!
I’m happy you have your family around and I hope you will be able to return at home very soon.
With much much love always… ?
Claudia
Dear Sabine, thank you very much for the update. What you are going through is not easy and this is why you are on my mind very often. You can do this Sabine, just keep thinking strong . In the meantime you are blessed to be surrounded by your loving family. All my love xxx
Sabine thank you so much for letting us know how you are. You have been very much in my heart and thoughts. Good vibes are zinging your way.
I’ve been quiet too but am thinking of you a lot. I hope they can get the pain and the nausea under control and that you can go home soon.
RIP Sabine. Though we never met in person, you have been part of my life for quite a while. I am going to miss you.
RIP Sabine. The loss to our community is huge.
We will miss you!
Immer wieder zieht es mich auf deine Seite … ich denke oft an dich und an die vielen Dinge, die wir geteilt haben. Gerne hätte ich noch viele schöne Stunden in Erinnerung an unsere gemeinsame Schulzeit mit Gesprächen im Café oder vllt. auch einmal auf Gozo mit dir verbracht …
Ich hoffe das es dir dort, wo immer du jetzt auch sein magst, gut geht. Ich vermisse dich!